July 19th, 2004


The secret life of me

I have had a reasonably good week, considering. This is perhaps why I haven't yet finished or posted my journal entry about how I once again risked losing my family. A journal should be for recording the hard, confronting stuff as well as the casual quips. But the last week has been so nice, that I haven't wanted to go back to that dark place.

I should still finish writing the entry, though, plus one for last Saturday evening - dinner at the Dava on the anniversary of Mum's death. The night was great and meant a lot to me.

I love my family so much. Sometimes this reduces me to tears. Just at the moment, though, it simply makes me happy. All thoughts of risking it are gone, leaving just a view of a (mostly) bright future.
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The job search - 50/50, or...?

The appealing possibility of being forced into a career change seems to be dwindling. Two out of the original nine "contestants" have withdrawn their applications. Problem is, even if I'm not suitable for a job, I probably interview well.

Basically, I'd like it to come down to a coin toss - a 50/50 chance of getting the job. It would help if I had an expectation of the salary to be offered for this position... I want to get the job in case it is a salary I am happy with. I want to lose the job so that I don't have to figure out how to turn it down if it's a salary I don't like.