June 23rd, 2003


Sunday morning, 3am...

I'm happy. It's almost 3:30am on Sunday morning and I'm the last one standing after the P Party at Pat's Place. Louise and Rose finally crashed at 3:15 and I've just done some tidying up of my stuff so I don't have to think about it later in the morning.

Though the party started at 7:30, we didn't leave Frankston 'til 7:40, so I got stressed. Theresa helped put stuff in the car and in a huff said "why do you feel you have to cater for everyone?" This got to me (though nothing was meant by it) and I later explained that I don't feel I have to; I feel I want to. For me, parties are infrequent events and they offer a chance to have a good time and form some memories, The parties I've most enjoyed in the past are the ones where I've put in some effort and played the host a bit. Theatre cast parties are memorable, but the same applies to other events; even just quiet drinks with Mum.

Perhaps it is a way of gaining some control over proceedings. I see that the current choice of music isn't working for people, so I put on something I think people may like, or that seems appropriate. The party picks up and I'm happy because I know the music that is playing.

Or, I'll take over the cooking of a barbecue, because even though I can't cook as well as I would like to, I can see that the other people involved have no idea what they are doing.

At the (first) final night cast party for The Taming Of The Shrew, Richard commented that I'm "the passive control freak". It seemed quite appropriate.

Perhaps that's why I tidy up a bit when people go to bed, or as a party is progressing. I like being able to stay on top of things and be ready for the next bit of entertaining. I also like being able to drink alcohol, but still stay in control.

I was happy earlier...

My day was going along on a nice positive note until about five minutes ago. Now my whole outlook on the day has dropped.

I offered to write training documentation for some products and then got the reply that I should have been expecting, but wasn't. "That's great; are you aware of the template you should be using?" Now, if this template happened to be a simple HTML template, I'd be perfectly happy. But nooooo, not in this Microsoft happy little hell hole. No offence to the company - it's only a hell hole because of the reliance on Microsoft; it's as if some people would fall into a heap if they had to use a more accessible format to handle their documents.

"One of the reasons I haven't used a template so far (apart from not knowing about it), is that I am writing them as web pages."

"Well you can write them in Word and export them as HTML."

I hope she didn't hear my teeth grinding. There is no way I intend to write "HTML" in Word. I'll look into creating a CSS that resembles the template, but honestly, if I have to submit a document that is actually application/msword rather than text/html, I don't know that I can do it. But can I get away with saying "here's the URL - if you want to import it into a Word document, fine..."?

The last thing we need is a higher number of web page hyperlinks pointing to .doc files. Maybe it's fine for the MSIE hugging Word lovers who see the documents load in the same window and can't tell the difference between that and linking to a real web page. But for me, clicking on a link to a Word document means two extra mouse clicks and several seconds extra time to load the document, but also more difficult navigation, since Word is an editor, not a viewer, and it lacks the useful viewing and navigational tools available in Opera.